There’s a lot of noise right now, people are dancing, women are cooking and children are playing as they don’t have a care in the world.. Cause they don’t.
I’m sitting here, watching them as i take a sip of a cold beer.
All these people are part of me, my Family, those who are growing up with me and watched me fall and helped me to stand.
Like every year I write what happened to me, i make a list and share it, with the places i loved the most, people i met and all the thing i learned..
This Year won’t be different in the writing about it matter.
But sure will be different in all those lists..
I started 2012 on a ship (as usual)… Not knowing how but being sure i had to leave once for all that life.
I went back home and started my new/old life, got a job and kept going, missing every day the easy but also messed up life of cruising.
I talked to myself so many times that i think i got to the point to go crazy., started to make plans for the future like the «adult» I should be.
Got frustrated so much… But i kept going.
I met someone, fell in love without even planning it, enjoyed eery bit of a friendship/notgonnabearelationship.
Didn’t work out, but I was happy that i was able to feel the love again, i let myself go and even tho I got sad when i realized it wasn’t going to be the way i wanted… My heart thank me cause i let it feel the joy and that magic that You can only feel when you’re in love.
This Year i grew up a little bit, I must say, i take my time now for making decisions, I’m thankful every day for the friends I have with me.
I learned to be strong enough to walk away, to know the difference between my battles, the ones I can win and the ones i have to admit I won’t.
Life on land being an Adult sucks if You ask me… But i learn to love every day, even tho somedays I want to kill myself.
I learned how important is to know where you’re going, to know what you want.
I kept myself in the path of living with LOVE, FAITH, HOPE & RESPECT… Loving God, myself and others, having the faith to continue my way, the hope that I will make the difference the good difference in someone’s life someday and Respect myself and everyone.
Not an easy way of living, but I can say that every night before bed I had the peace in my heart and mind that I did good.
They were days that I felt out of place, that i had no clue what i was doing, but again, my friends and God kept me going.
This 2012 i can say I didn’t travel much, the journey I chose will take me places.. But it will take some time.
I saw Amanda this year, and even tho it was for only 10 days.. Everything felt right in this universe.. Once again, having your best friend next to you makes everything better.
I have plans that will follow on this new Year., people that will stay in 2012 and moments that will be with me forever.
Thankful.. That is the word that will define my year.
Thankful cause my dad got the job he wanted, thankful that my family is with me, thankful I’m alive… That even tho I have no boyfriend or a house on my own.. I have ME, I have God.. Therefore I’m not alone.
So 2012 is the continuation of a project that i call Life…
2012 ends today.. But 2013 is knocking on my door strongly, giving me the chance to keep doing things the right way.
I now stand up.. Have to finish my cooking for new year’s dinner… Have to talk to the people around me and play with the children.. Be with my family… That I’m thankful to have.